be happy

this is a very hard goal to accomplish because it’s easy to sit around and complain about everything we don’t have instead of looking at what we do have and being thanful for that.

for a long time everytime my b-day came around i would get really upset because i was getting older and i didn’t like it, but this year is different than all the rest. last year was a tough year for a lot of different reasons. there were times when i didn’t know what was going to happen and i was really scared. i have to say it’s one of the years that taught me the most about myself as well as about the people around me. i’m going to admit some of the things that happened were hard to get over and some left permanent scars that i don’t think i’ll ever be able to erase but from every single thing that happened i learned a lesson. thanks to all those things i’m a better person. i’m closer than i was before to becoming who i want to be. for a long time i didn’t really know who i was. i mean i thought i knew because that’s what happens when you are young and naive, you tend to think you know more than you do until life knocks you on your ass and when it does you realize what a fool you were for thinking you knew what life was all about. i look back and i see a lot of things that i couldn’t see before. i let go of a lot of anger and resentment and for the first time in my life i learned to forgive. i learned that nobody is perfect not even me. we all make mistakes and we all change. there’s nothing we can do about it but learn from the things that we encounter and try to find our way and maybe make a difference along the way.