Believe in myself

I believe that I am not perfect but should be allowed to pursue it.
I believe that we are all allowed to express our opinion but be willing to defend it when challenged
I believe that stereo-types are in no way true and that we classify people and things because we are reacting to fear
I believe that every decision comes down to love or fear
I believe that music is infinite and that it has more power then we think to connect people
I believe that television is a form of mind alteration that creates unhealthy human living
I believe that we as a human race are becoming less intimate with each other
I believe that we are challenged with things that we can not handle but learn that is why we have other people in our lives
I believe that living more organic and connected to our environment the more inner peace we will have
I believe that I can change the world but in in any way that I expect to.
I believe that we have only one life and that while we will never make the most of it we should try to appreciate it more
I believe that we do have soul mates who are out there but to find them we need to live in the moment
I believe that we spend time thinking about what we could be more then what we can do right now.
I believe in human kindness and that the general population is actually good people
I believe that we need to react to hate with love not for the act of hate but the love needed in the world
I believe that many of us never reach our full potential because we procrastinate.
I believe I can be a better person than who I was yesterday by recognizing mistakes that I made and trying to improve my actions
I believe that we all have a choice to make and that we will never truly know what was the right decision because each decision alters your life
I believe that all of this has been said by others but that I wrote this for myself to confirm and remind myself that I am not a passive bystander in life.

I love routine. I love it because I can control most of what happens in a routine day. I am not overly happy but I am not incredibly sad. I am existing…. If I were to be more risky which is what I tried the other day and it turned into an argument with one of my few friends here. I also find the more riskier I become with my personality and being more myself the more people seem to just bend to my decisions which was not what I was looking for. I wanted to participate more not dictate more. Well this rant has gone nowhere so I end it now thinking that I need to work on this more

I have let myself become meek and I have become a pathetic person a lame friend and a loner. I can conquer fear once I am happy again. I will not worry because it is not useful I will make changes that will make me happier.
okay time to regroup.

I have made some really bad mistakes lately. Mistakes that reflect on my (in)ability at work. I like this song with the lyrics “believe in love believe in hate believe in things I can fight” The song never says to believe the singer. I think that I have blind faith in many things but zero in myself. I need more confidence…and a hug:( guh pity party for one over here.

definitely I need to believe in myself. I need to know that I can trust myself and that I make good decisions. I am kinda smart and a good person. I can do this!