not be depressed

i started taking cymbalta last week. not much relief yet, just side effects but i have to give it time to work. i’ve been on meds before but they all made me gain weight. this one seems to be killing my appetite so hopefully i won’t gain this time.

i really don’t remember the last time i was “happy.” sure things make me smile now and then but i am never really happy. i know it’s a chemical imbalance but i really don’t want to be on an antidepressant. done that before and i can’t stand the sexual side effects (neither can my fiance). i find myself getting mad about nothing and then i get mad about being mad. it’s a vicious cycle! i’m hoping my faith in God will pull me through this.