stop binge-eating

Well, I totally fell off the wagon. I have been dealing with some pretty serious anxiety and it dawned on me that binging gets rid of the anxiety. Go figure. I am still optimistic. I leave in a day for a 3 week volunteer trip. That’s plenty of time to create a new habit. And I won’t be tempted or in situations where binging is an option.

I wish everyone the best of luck throughout the rest of April. I’ll check back when I return! (Hopefully revived and binge-free)!

Well… I have honestly not binged in quite some time. I am working to not think about food and not count calories and not focus on it so much. Therefore, I eat what I want, when I am hungry. If I want dessert, than that’s okay. There more I accept that it is okay to eat junk food (in moderation, of course), the less desire I feel for binging. Don’t get me wrong, I ate a bunch of sweets tonight. But it wasn’t in binging mode. I didn’t step out of my body or experience such extreme pleasure from having another scoop of ice cream. It’s just food and I refuse to let it continue having so much power over me.

I have to admit, the past week or so has been strange for me, but in a completely good way. It’s like a switch was flicked and all of a sudden I came back to myself. Even my counselor said she noticed I was more positive. That’s gotta be a good thing right? Even through my anxiety these past few days, I was able to not binge, and it didn’t even seem that hard.

I am tring to take a new outlook on life. Knowing that I did all this damage to my body through binging, knowing that I will reverse it when I am ready, knowing that I will do that in moderation. I am trying to be more accepting of myself. I think moderation is key. I even went out for frozen yogurt tonight. Usually the sugar would send right the pantry for a binge, but not tonight. It’s weird, the less attention I give to trying not to binge, the less I think about food overall and the better off I am.

This site has been clutch in getting even to this point. The support has forced me hold myself accoutable. So thank you all!

Okay, I have to confess that after I posted last night, I had a mini binge. Nothing even close to what I usually, but basically I ate more food than I was hungry for. I recognized my stimulus for binging – sitting at my computer at night (anytime after dinner)- for extended periods of time. Surprisingly, I don’t really view it as a setback. It’s still moving forward. Again, I realized WHAT I was doing, so I stopped. Having that self-awareness is new, but key.

well, things have been going well for the past few days. I have learned a few things that I would like to share with everyone. 1. There is a difference between eating too much and binging. Just because we eat an extra piece of chocolate does not qualify a binge. 2. While I may in the midst of an extremely low body image crisis, I need to take things one a time. That means, to me at least, getting the binging under control by not focusing so much of my energy of food and then, moving on to losing the weight the resulted for the two months of binging. I’m not sure it’s possible for me to try not to binge and, at the same time, try to diet. That’s too much strain on the body.
So I am please to report 4 days binge free – the longest I’ve gone in over two months. I was feeling tempted this afternoon, but took proactive approach and called a friend to watch a movie. Hope everyone is hanging in there. Let’s not give up, we can do this together.

Well, you can certainly count me in. Yesterday was a very good day. And today hasn’t been too bad, not perfect, but not a derailer. I did just eat 2 Luna-type bars and a hnadful of trail mix. But I think that’s okay, certainly not a binge. More like a late dinner.

I am really happy that I found this website. I am pleasantly surprised by the support I find in talking with everyone. So here I am:
2 days binge-free

I also will be going to dinner tomorrow night and then to some drinking. Luckily a friend will be visiting so I think her presence will keep the drinking munchies in check.

So once I came down from my sugar high… I had a great workout today, chicken salad for dinner. And a ton of trail mix. Not a binge per se – but way too much trail mix. I was very cognizant of what I was eating the entire time. When I binge its almost like an out-of-body experience.

But get this, I stopped eating. I just realized that my stomach is full, I don’t need to eat that many peanuts or dried pineapple in one sitting, so I put the lid on the trail mix and shoved in back in the pantry. While I ate more than I planned for today, I still think I took a step forward.

Hide that Easter candy everyone!! We can have a good week.

Ok, so after I just ate an exorbantant amount of Easter candy, I decided I was going to try something new. Talking myself out of binging hasn’t worked for the past two. Maybe maybe it public (albeit anonymous) will help me regain some self control. I was reading some other posts and I felt like I was reading about myself. It was crazy. Binging is like this secret thing I do at home, alone, and it was almost like being given verification that yes – you do have a problem, no – you are not the only one, and yes – you can beat this.

The thing that makes me so angry is that I worked so hard to lost about 12 lbs and get toned. I actually was almost happy with my body. And then about 2 months ago I started binging almost everyday. So of course, I put all the weight back on, plus a few extras.

I always say tomorrow and then post-dinner time rolls around and I find myself in the kitchen, again. So here it goes – TOMORROW I WILL NOT BINGE!