Ignore people who don't matter

Did okay with this one this weekend although there were tons of people around who didn’t matter. I would really just like to stop talking about them too. But sometimes it feels good to be really hateful and we decided as long as we just do it amongst ourselves it is okay.

The medication I am on now, Cymbalta, is really helping with this. I am much more relaxed and easy going these days. I still have flair ups when I get really angry about stuff but it isn’t all the time like it was. I think the therapy is helping also. I am more aware of my emotions. Boy, I sound kinda crazy.

I feel like I kind of did it this morning when I did not respond to an email that really set me off. But can I ever really achieve this goal if I keep writing about it here?

With discussions heating up and having taken the plunge to publicly state my intention to be more active I am forced to interact with the people who don’t matter. And it is hard to ignore them, but I am doing my best. I don’t think I will have to be around them too much in person at events so that will fine. But my blood really seems to boil when I have to read one of their posts. That bugs me. I need to work on that.

As a rule I really don’t like people. I will like you as a person when I get to know you but People bother me. Either they are driving too fast and riding my bumper or they are driving to slow in front of me. They get to the drive in window at Wendy’s and still don’t know what they want. They drive by my house with their bass up way to loud and rattle my windows. They throw their trash out their car window. They are clueless, obnoxious, bothersome, tiresome and dirty. People just get on my nerves. I really want to work on ignoring the people, and spend more of my time paying attention to the person.