Find a balance between the things I want to do and the things I need to do

First day of school today, and I’m epically mad super stressed already… I don’t really have that much to do at all, I just DONT WANT TO DO IT!!!

I had no AP summer work this summer… AMAZING! and sooo totally awesome… while everyone was doing APUSH summer work today (one guy did 7.5 hours straight… and he doesn’t mess around, he gets shit done fast, well, relatively) I kayaked for about 3 or so hours by myself. I think it was 7 or 7.5 miles along the shore of the Sound, so really open water, pretty strong current. It was awesome! most of the time I was going against the tide/current soo that sucked, but I got to surf in some awesome waves and stuff. It was a really great thing to do to unwind right before my first day of school tomorrow….

I’m taking AP Bio and AP Environmental Science, so I’m psyched about those. I’m also taking AP Language & Comp (basically english… reading and writing) and AP Calc, which I’m really good and fairly good at, respectively. I’m not totally psyched on those, but they should be interesting and challenging. I have no lunch period because I’m taking two science classes and they each have a lab period… hm :/ I usually bring pb&j and fruit anyway because I’m vegan and can’t eat anything except pb&j or cereal and soymilk from the cafeteria anyway. Oh well, it’s all because I love science!

oh, so I always need and want to sleep so thats great, I always need and want to drink lots of water…. blah blah… but lately I haven’t really been wanting to eat. I NEED to, but even when I’m absolutely starving I sometimes just don’t feel like eating anything…. weird.

This entire post was really random, sorry guys. I need and want to sleep now. mostly need.

need to:
maintain good grades in my classes
maintain my good reputation
not procrastinate & stay focused
sleep more

want to:
get dreads
ski/run/climb more often
focus more on my training for the mountain run
hang out with friends more
get my first kiss
sleep more
meditate/do yoga more
spend more time working on my photography
take more risks

I’m still in school…ugh. not planning in dropping out, trust me, i’m committed, and not to mention a good student. i want to get through high school and college successfully, which i will. i want to learn. it’s just such a damn long road. i want to be out of school and out in the world, free to do what i want- climb some peaks, hike the entire pacific crest trail (2,600 miles) in one go…or maybe two ;), backpack around central asia, heliski in canada…ok that last one i would really like to do but yeah, as if i’d have the money, lol.