laugh more

Not even at people. Here’s a laugh: I am getting a tax refund back for the first time in I don’t know how long. Do I deserve it? Probably not. Who can I brag about that to that I won’t sound like it’s just one more reward that I neither deserve nor can truly appreciate?

A gal on Myspace thinks I should smile more. Well, she thinks everyone should smile more. I feel like a dunce sometimes, smiling. I haven’t met someone really to smile about for a long ass time. And that’s no laughing matter.

What’s with the whiny attitude tonight, anyway? Ha.

“It’s amazing how what I want to say and what you want to hear come together.” -Me

“When an idea runs for the first time through your own mind, it comes out as an original thought.” -Neil Armstrong

That kind of reveals my dilemma. I don’t have any outlets for my emotions. My friends I barely see, let alone show them direct emotion. My one friend I was beginning to do that with a year ago ended up betraying me, more or less. Shut me down. I just need more outlets. Emotional electricians, where are you? Bring on the fun, bring on the deep conversations, bring it all the hell on!