i am back in the gym this week, since my week off last week. and im happy to be back, going hard and esp with the cardio. i cant believe how much i am loving running on treadmill. doing hiit sprints and inclines and just changing it up. tuesday was a lift session with a tiny bit of cardio, wed was a major cardio treadmill session that lasted 2 hours and then today was a lift session with a tiny bit of cardio initially, but cause im enjoyed it so much i threw in another 10 mins of hiit sprints and 10 mins of steady running. i must be crazy, but im really loving it. and tommorow is a cardio day again. monday was a rest day. my only rest day for this week.
also i met up with my cousin for lunch on monday… and the first thing he said to me when we met up was, ive lost weight! and he could see my face was thinner etc…. since he saw me 2 months ago.
then on wed eve at work, a girl i used to work with years ago, but comes to our restaurant every now and again… came in for a meal with her folks, and she also said that to me straight away, and wanted to know how i was losing the weight, i just said i go to the gym and i stop eating this food here lol. funiily enough it was her dad who had also commented on my weight a few weeks ago… but he hadnt arrived yet when she said that. so that was nice. to be honest whilst im flattered that people are noticing that i am losing weight, im find it a bit embarressing and overwhelming… i dont actually like talking about it too much. cos it brings too much attention to myself and i dont like too much attention sometimes. esp about something so personal i feel. but i feel it comes with the territory i guess.
right that was the good news, the bad news…. whilst i have been sticking with the gym this week and loving it, today and yesterday i didnt make the best food choices. for the first time this year i had a binge today. i was craving junk, and i bought junk and i ate it. for the first time, i bought some chocolate and some crisps this year. i ordered a pizza and i ate it all. and i felt awful afterwards and i didnt enjoy it at all. so today was my binge. yesterday i indulged in these 2 small packets of crisps, 1 small plain lemon muffin, and 2 small chocolates from a box of assorted gift chocs. those things were just things my parents had bought and were lying about the house. my parents flew to SA yesterday, but this junk food was in the house, and usually i dont eat it, they eat and buy all the sugary stuff. but i find myself alone and this stuff is staring at me, and i found myself craving them so i had them. and now today the binge. i feel bad about it, but i know it didnt taste great, i didnt enjoy it, ive got it out my system, i told my self its my cheatmeal, cos im human and i should eat this stuff now and again if i need to, it can actually help with metabolism if u have been eating super healthy, and its good to have a cheat meal once a week or now and again. so its done and dusted, the positive is that i had it and it reminds me that it didnt taste nice or enjoyable and i can carry on with healthier eating tommorow. the rest of the day, yesterday and today, i did eat healthy and clean. and i intend to tommorow too.
the next cheatmeal i have, i will wait awhile for it, and i will plan it better. this one wasnt really planned. but im human. thats life. these things are gonna happen. onwards and upwards.