lose weight

Trying to get back into the habit of weighing myself and writing an entry here each Monday. Want to get down to 60kg, and I need to remember to just take it one step at a time, otherwise it seems overwhelming. Mini goal for this week is to go for at least a short walk every day.

I can’t believe how quickly time flies when you have a baby. Since my last entry I have just continued to gain weight. Now have about 25kg to lose. Step one- get up before the baby does and have breakfast. If I let myself get too hungry I’ll eat anything- as long as it’s not healthy. So my goal for this week is just to have breakfast within an hour of getting up every day.

Baby was born 3 weeks ago, I’ve been eating terribly since then. I need to get into better habits again, for my sake and hers. I am constantly tired and looking for quick fixes- like iced coffee and chocolate. I think step one should be to have a chocolate free day, so that is my goal for tomorrow. Baby steps (no pun intended).

But I need to get my act together regarding healthy eating and exercise, so I’m just going to keep posting in this goal. I have been so slack for the last month or so, and gained more weight than I should for this early in the pregnancy. I FINALLY went for a walk last night, need to make it (or some other form of exercise) a daily habit. I also need to be super organised and have lots of healthy food available all the time, I am constantly hungry. I have a fast metabolism and was like that before I even got hungry, but now it is ridiculous!

But this looks like it’s going on hold for 9 months or so.

Didn’t really get back on the wagon as I said I would last week, but have been quite good so far this week. Going for a walk soon, only 20 minutes, I’ll do a longer one tomorrow.

Weight is way back up, last time I checked over 72kg. Have been eating terribly since I got back home, but it’s been a couple of weeks since my mother in law passed away so the comfort eating has to stop. I also have ridiculously high blood pressure, and while the amount of weight I need to lose won’t make a difference, exercise might help to reduce my stress levels and bring the blood pressure down, so it’s an extra reason to get back into better habits. Starting Monday, and will use my day off tomorrow to make sure I’ve got lots of healthy food organised for the week.

This really isn’t meant to be my year. Just as I was getting things back under control we got the news that my mother in law is really unwell. She had a double lung transplant 5 years ago and is now rejecting her lungs. The doctors have been trying to stop it all year, and they’ve just told her there is nothing more they can do. So we are going home as soon as possible, which means we have just over a week to pack up our apartment and our lives in Japan and say goodbye to everyone.

I know when there are other people in this situation I’m always telling them to keep looking after their health, that there is always time for a quick walk and to cook a good meal, you just have to make it a priority. But I feel like I just have absolutely no time, and I don’t want to eat healthily. I just want to eat and eat, and when we are out I just want to drink and drink. For the first couple of days my reaction to stress was actually to stop eating, I just completely forgot, and when I remembered the thought of food just turned my stomach.

Anyway, don’t know where I’m going with this, just venting. I will try and eat well, but I don’t really give a damn right now.

Oops, going the wrong way. Was away for the weekend and walked for most of Saturday and Sunday, but ate atrociously. And drank. Got home last night and we were exhausted and ordered pizza. Which I finished off for breakfast this morning, washed down with coke. Sorry body.

Have this entire week off, so no excuse not to get my fridge and healthy eating organised. Away for another long weekend on Friday, but this time I’ll make sure there’s something in the freezer for when we get home. It’s ridiculous that I’m not losing weight, I need to get my eating under control.

Still more than I was, but I am finally back in the habit of eating healthily (most of the time at least) and exercising. Did my yogalates video for the first time yesterday.