leave

Dear Terrance, I love you muchly
you’ve been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available and supportive
And nurturing and consummately there for me
I kept drawing you in and pushing you away
I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch
and cry in front of you for the first time
you were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself what was wrong with me?

Dear Lou, we learned so much
I realize we won’t be able to talk for some time
and I understand that, as do you
The long distance thing was the hardest
and we did as well as we could
we were together during a very tumultuous time
In our lives, I will always have your back
and be curious about you
about your career
about your whereabouts.

Felt the need in a long time. Maybe it’s called happy, but wait let me not scare it away.