fall in love with a good guy

my husband IMed me and wants to talk more.
we shall see. I love him, that is no doubt there.
I have to make sure that I let him talk and not ramble on or be too nice.
I know I was too nice in the past, spoiled him.
we have been separated about 3 yrs I think now.
3 and a half.

my husband and I have been separated for 4 yrs, we are starting to email a little. and text( yeah i knnow) but it is new and different to have any communication at all.
who knows.

even though I am still only separated and still love my husband dearly, he does not want to /cant be with us. He lives out of state and we see him one or 2 days in the summer when he comes up with his girlfriend, stays at his moms.
I fell in love with him at first sight, he had problems but we discovered 5 yrs later they are arteriovenous malformations in his brain.
so… it is unpredictable and makes him feel bad, not much self control, and he self medicates with alcohol etc.
I had to tell him to go when he was violent.
it hurt me, and i still miss him, but had to do that.
I pray for a miracle, yet I still feel selfishly, that I want someone new to help me and to love me…
especially cuz we have to move this summer, it is on my shoulders ,,, It is stressful and I get scared. dont sleep well.
I know another man is not the answer to all my problems, but a nice one, hey he might be!