admit it

It is true.I made too many mistakes,I did too many things wrong.I didn’t take action when I had to.But I didn’t have other option.I was stuck in a no-win position.I regret not taking my chances when I could,even if I know that if I had taken them it wouldn’t have been different now.
I’m without direction now.Going on to university,majoring in what I wanted,but with bag full of emotional baggage and problems.Problems I cannot overcome on my own.
And I hope future will be brighter,cause the present is slowly killing me…
and,yes,I know I’m blowing out of proportion now,guess after a day or few minutes I;ll be happy again.But for the time being I’ll allow myself to feel sad and regretful.

One year later confession number one is as valid as it was when I first wrote it
I don’t know if I’m supposed to laugh or cry:)
but at least I admitted it
and by the way I met a girl who daydreams as much as I do.Her daydreams are more connected with fictional characters than mine,anyway she is in a way inspiration for me(I won’t explain in detail why now,I’ll just say she often uses her fantasies in very creative way.and I feel relieved that I met somebody who enjoys it too
the thing with daydreaming is that it can be both creative,positive and destructive at the same time.It depends-It can give a lot,but take a lot as well,if one does it in excess

I daydream far too much.yeah,I know everybody does it from time to time But I do it a lot and I can literally spend hours doing it,especially when I’m feeling depressed.I often do it even while walking,while commuting,in classes,well practically everywhere
It has even happened to cancel appointments just to have more time for daydreaming…also I procrastinate many thing because I feel like daydreaming.really it’s pleasant but it is sometimes such a time waister and if you’re asking what I’m daydreaming about…well
about everything…,people in my life reacting differently,accepting and approving me(guess I’m a bit approval seeker ops),about me enjoying myself and having fun,about adventures,about expressing my point of view without difficulties,about knowing a special secret,about magic,about having special cloak that makes me invisible:)well the list is quite long…
mainly though I daydream of better relating to people…
oh,I can’t believe I admitted it
funny thing is I don’t actually want to experience some of the things I daydream about-like knowing others’secret thoughts(or maybe one part of me wants it huh) nevertheless I daydream about it…
Is there somebody there similar to me?:)