Create a Powerful Self-Image

i think i m pretty close to this goal now….......

crumbling in stress,bowing to circumstances,sacrificing friends.I feel so hollow these days.Seems as if life is not making me happy.Though,if i really look around me..i have raised my status materially,i have completed my responsibilities for family,i support and am successful in helping people in their needs…...but what do i want??? Its vacuum within.I am successful,but,a begger for my own happiness.I have yet to develop an attitude to see/find my happiness in other’s.How to be like that?I always tried to keep people around me happy….but,why i m so deserted!!!!
May be,i m outta proportion…God give me strength.

gonna sea-low in my esteem.
Just few days back,a friend of mine,who is a very famos tarot card reader,said that whenever she saw me she thought of Strength,empowerment,success,and so many strong words coming personified.
I loved it when she said that,but,I don’ deserve it perhaps.I am so fragile,i can’ handle my life.I m still crying for my man,my friends.I have no courage to lead a graceful single life….without any man in my life.

My powerful image is broken in my eyes.I gave hurt to someone i care to the core.I pray for them.I pray God to punish me for this.I m already suffering….this has bitten my soul.
I wish for a very very close friend of mine and his family.
I should have been careful.I was carried away.I bacame selfish.I feel very depressed.

I performed in a meeting and felt happy about the level of confidence I displayed there.
I think its all because I was doing that particular work with honesty,if not commitment.

I have lost my self-esteem.I m aware of my potentials,but,i can’ live witout being loved.I have lost my love-interest.He has dumped me.I am feeling insulted.I m feeling sick of me.I still crave for him,that,in turns,makes me sick.How can i impose myself upon someone who has left me!!!But i do it sometime and destroting myself in pieces.