feel complete

i don’t know why, but for some reason I just don’t feel complete. i don’t know what it would even take. is it another person? am i living in the wrong place, at the wrong job? is there a strong sense of regret? maybe i’ve been single too long!

i would imagine that feeling incomplete is a result of insecurities. ‘that i need more’, more what? i do feel like my default state is always looking for something.

that is what all of the spiritual texts say, quit looking. everything we need is right inside. i suppose we just have to retrain ourselves? culture and society have done an excellent job training me to believe that i need lots more.

or maybe it is simpler than that. maybe it is just feeling loved.