get over the love of my life

What I want to say to Ann but can’t. so i will post it here.

Ann I was so deeply hurt by you. You acted so callus and seemed like you thought about me, not at all.

I never had closure with you. You just cut off your feeling for me and left me hanging in the wind. For so long I apologized for bothering you with my love for you. Why would someone do that? Feel that they needed to apologize for wanting to spend the rest of their life with someone.

You’re callous, vain, pretentious and seemingly incapable of love and committment. You’re terried to truly open yourself up to anyone. You must be incredibly lonely and unhappy in this emotional shell you’ve created for yourself. You had your chance to spend your life with me and chose to be ruled by what ever demons keep you from caring for someone other then yourself.

I’ve been truly hurt and have wasted so much energy over you. For the life of me, why I ever fell in love with you still baffles me.

You’re not worth my thoughts, love or time.

I speak
Because I know my needs
I speak with hesitation
Because I know not yours

My Words
Come from my life’s experiences
Your understanding
Comes from yours

Because of this
What I say
And what you hear
May not be the same

So if you will listen carefully
But not with your ears
To what I say
But not with my tongue

Maybe somehow
We can communicate