Remember my amazing mom

I think this was my mom’s favorite time of year. then again she gave all year round like it was christmas everyday. Why does it seem harder now than it did when she first passed? I am having our first ever xmas party at our house for myside of the family and i am excited and sad at the same time… Christmas is getting harder and harder to be excited for. Mom I miss you so much and miss the chance at knowing and learning so much more, the chance of the friendship that could have been.

day, I think of something you have done or said. It is getting harder sometimes i think i’ve lost you. Then something happens and i feel your presence. Iknow you would have been mad at me for the tears i shed at missing you, i still cry because it is hard but then i try to think of something you would say or just that touch you would have and in some small way iam comforted.

I don’t care how old i am, i still want my mom, and it is with that want that i hold onto, to somehow find a way to keep crawling out of my hole that the depression digs. I know that everyone needs a mothers love, biological or not, and it is with that i will always be here for my kids.

Is coming up. 7 years, 3 more babies and a dog. So much life has gone on and yet I am still missing you more than ever. I shed tears of sadness at not getting to know you more, even more tears are shed because my sons missed meeting the most loving and humble soul ever and having her arms wrapped tightly around them and being embraced in her sweetness. Sometimes i think I hear you whispering to me, sometimes i smell you. The thing i miss the most is just being able to sit next to you and not say a word and yet you still comforted me. I wish you were here.

always strive to tell a story about my mom everyday!!

6 1/2 years since my mother passed, there are so many things i try to remember about her. I do know she would hate for anyone to shed any tears for her but with each child i had after she passed it hits me so hard that she isn’t here. I never understood why she lived the way she chose to live, but when i started to have my children I understood. She had 9 children and i was the youngest. I don’t really remember her much as i was growing up but I will always remember her for who she was to me as i got older. I want to share all i can about my Mom to my kids, she taught me to be forgiving, loving, strong not in words but by her actions. My boys will never ever get a chance to meet her but i try so hard to make sure they know about her. My two oldest girls were fortunate enough to have been in her presence and it helps that they talk about her too. I am so glad to see someonelse had this goal!!!