have one super good friend!

Amy is my best friend, we were friends thru our husbands we socialized when we did things with our husbands and chatted it up on yahoo a lot but in the last year she has become my best friend and sometimes we are inseperable! I am glad to have such a wonderful friend!

I have a handful of very special friends. I can talk to each one of them about anything and they’re all good people. But as we’ve gotten older we’ve all moved to different places in our lives. Most of my friends are single mothers with different priorities. A few are still single and living it up…and others have created their own families and don’t have much free time to even send an email. I love them all so much I really do…but I don’t have just that one friend that gets me inside and out and is in the same stage of life as me. Someone who is my equal in every way and we’d just get each other. I’m trying…and I’ve made a few new friends but thought we may have the same spot in our lives we don’t have all that much in common. I want to meet someone who lvoes to go to movies…loves kids..is completely in touch with reality….has the same kinds of interests and hobbies. Is non judgemental…listens as well as talks. Give and take..ying and yang. All my life I’ve had one of those kind of friends…but then I grew up and grew apart and no one is that close to me anymore. I suddenly feel alone is some areas. Its so hard to explain. I can talk to any one of my friends about anything and everything but not a single one of them knows me…knows my weaknesses, my flaws…and just gets me. Sometimes I feel bad…like maybe its my husband who should be this “friend” and right now our lives together are so scheduled that its insane. He gets home at 12:30am and we have 15 minutes each night until I need to go to bed because of work in the morning. This time is scheduled for telling each other about our days…then we have a few hours for lunch and talking about stuff during my day off during the week. Its insane but I’m adjusting. Saturday is date night and Sunday is Cleaning, Baking, Shopping. Before I know it my week has started again. As for my sister. I love her very much..and I spend almost all of my time with her and her children….but lately she’s very busy with work and I’m just to tired to really “talk”. Am I crazy to think that there is such a person. Some days I want to move back to North Dakota because all my friends put together fills up every one of those voids…and they all make me feel so very cared about. I miss that a lot. They still show it..in emails and phone conversations but its hard being apart from them. I wish I appreciated them more when I was still living in North Dakota I never knew how much they meant to me.