be present

Still just going through the motions for the most part, but I have had more “present moments” than normal lately. Yay!

On the other hand, I drove several places in the past couple days and upon arriving couldn’t remember anything about the drive there at all! I must be zoning out pretty bad.

I can’t remember the last time I have been really present, felt like I was really doing something, or even felt like I was really there. I attempted to explain this concept to my boyfriend, which only lead to confusion. It made me wonder if most people are present all the time and it’s just me who isn’t there.

It doesn’t matter what situation I’m in, whether it’s something I love or hate; I never feel present. I’m always off somewhere else. Usually I’ll be thinking about the past or just completely “zoning out” and feeling nothing at all.

I’m unsure how to approach this problem. If I come up with anything or make any kind of progress, I’ll post back.