fall out of love

soooo damn close!!! But right there he came back to me showing he cares somehow. How can you make someone express stuff like it really is? I hate being insecure and unsure and all shaken up & gettin lost in my own made up theories… Nevertheless, I am so still IN.

The more I draw back the more I find myself in it!!! Damn!
Oh I wish I knew what is going on… How can you make someone be honest and name the game..

no success, .. but feel like I am getting there slowly… I have noticed some endeavor to find replacement… even if it’d be a part time thing.. but am desperately looking for a understanding soulmate… think it is not wise thing to do but.. WTF. Anything goes as long as I dont get killed by HIS neglectfulness.

kind of numb.. not exactly fallen out of love yet but … numb. I do not want to care. I try to shut all that down but so far so good.. Came back from the “vacation” and am stuck back in work issues, with both of my legs. And that is good. Keeps me occupied. NO time to deal with his ignorance.