Stop hurting myself

I keep cutting. And today, I cut a lot on my wrist so it looks ugly. They aren’t deep….but there’s still a lot. And they are ugly. And people may see them. And I just want to give up on everything.

Please, Lord, take me away frorm this life.

Cutting keeps me alive.

So far I am doing alright with not cutting. There have been two times where I had everything set up and about to put the razor to my skin, but then I see my cuts frrom the time before, and all of my scars…and I stop myself. It’s good.

But sometimes, I just wish that I would let myself have the release. I need it. I can barely make it. It’s the releases that keep me from killing myself.

It’s so hard to not do it because it is so easy to do it.