stop being so insecure

I’ve pretty much spent the weekend feeling sorry for myself.

I don’t know what has come over me, I’m usually quite a positive person but i think having not lost any more weight , having no money and handing my notice in at work before having a new job to go to has finally hit me.

But it’s fine. I’ve snapped out of it! I’m positive.. I’ve stopped being down on myself and i’m good to go!

I have plenty of insecurities,

Mostly about the way i look. In fact.. i think they all are.

I’m fit comfortably into a size 14 at the moment (UK sizes). I was a 20 so i do feel a bit better about myself. It’s starting to kick in that i’ve lost 40 pounds in about 5 months. But i still don’t feel 100%

At the end of ‘the year of the diet’, I hope to be comfortable enough to get in front of the camera and do a suicide girl style photo shoot, for myself more than anything. I think once i do that and i’m happy with it. I’ll have made it and can cross this off my list of ‘thing’s.