get a boyfriend

How are we going to work?

At the moment we’re together but not official. I like this guy sooo much but at the same time I’m not sure if the two of us could ever be more than what we already are.

I know he feels the same way :S last night he asked, “What are we going to do?”.

None of us can leave now. It’s too hard. Whenever we’re together it’s almost impossible to let go.

This isn’t ticked off. “Seeing” a guy is different. For now I prefer it being relaxed.

I think he is…im somewhat confused.

He said he’s not interested in a fling and wants something long term…but it’s still a little weird. I feel like I keep him at a distance when we’re in public, like i’m shy about the concept that that’s what he is, my boyfriend.

A male friend of mine told me that if i keep doing that im going to loose him. Agh. I really don’t want to push him away because the truth is he’s gorgeous. He actually is. I don’t want to ruin things, but it’s as if that’s what im doing.

:(

haha I think its about time I get me one of these!