blessings

I feel vunerable when i write an entry in this…
i use this to write down everything i saw on a certain day that at the time made me feel inadequate “unworthy”. But change it so i’m not blocking myself from it through negative feelings but “blessing” the goodness that it is. I guess opening myself up to recognising it in myself. This has helped me a lot. It helps me see what i want/am clearly. I’d never actually truly felt what i wanted before this unless my heart was screaming at me aloud, basically i had to have a big reaction to something to recognise what i wanted. I’m definetely more awake now!
Anyways, today i am going to bless the things i saw today that i liked in myself.
LAughter, laughing at myself. I enjoy being able to do this.
The colour turqouise as it suits me so well.Everyone has their colours , this is one of mine!
My green eyes. Because they’re different, sometimes blue.
That i volunteered to do the vacuming at work as its a good work out , yae me! I AM pro active!
Being able to converse with people easily. I bless this in Nicole aswell, i really like how she gets along with people. Acknowledges everything they say. As i worry less about what people think of me (or more like what i think of myself) i find i’m more able to be more fully present in the moment.
The motherly look Eilana gave Nicole. I was jealous of this, maybe i still am. ok part of me still is. I want someone to look at me with that motherly love again, but i recognise its beauty and uniqueness.I bless it.
I bless the adventures of Nic and Ree, they helped me become reaware of how the world is just full of many magical moments to happen. I am able to live this now with joy and awareness of abundace of good things that life DOES have.
i bless Nics just “letting go” and liveliness!
I bless their courage in all the things they’ve done. I’ve been many places but to be honest before Laos ,i didn’t really challenge my comfort feelings. I bless Boldness and courage!And the feeling that no matter what happens “you’ll be right!”.
I bless how comfortable they feel with their bodies.
ibless my journey

This is about recognizing the things i see around me in myself. The things that make my heart slightly flutter. The flutter helps me recognise what it is i truly want , what makes me passionate. I stop in the moment, acknowledge that part of myself and bless it. Not in a religious sense but in a way of acknowledging something positive. It can be really interesting when you start to truly listen to yourself and experience those things that make the heart flutter. The latest one was a photo of a pro australian surfer riding a huge wave , i wanted to be him ,i really should start to practice more!

Tanya making her own clothes,her creativity.That she has found something she loves to do.Everyone having their own gifts and how they use/express them in everyday life.
i bless spirituality but i also bless every moment that is full of fun times , joy , fun conversation.Everything doesn’t have to be about philosophy .Everything doesn’t have to be so serious.
I bless the way people can recognise what they want /need in their life and how they bring that in. I bless how people can be so in touch with themselves and how they are able to express themselves.

Today i bless Emilie again and her role in my lesson of today. I bless the way Kia is so loving with everyone and her way of conversing and sharing with everyone. I bless the realness of Sue and Andrews relationship,their warm love. I bless the universe and how i trusted and had faith and how it gifted me in return.I accept and bless the gift. I feel as though i understand why it is called “mother earth”. I bless being able to feel the power and love of being provided for ,having faith and letting go.

Today i bless Emilies way of being when i hit her car. She wasn’t upset ,she was compassionate and understanding. I bless her loving.
I bless Kias love and happiness. I bless her and Shanes relationship.Its beauty and power.
I bless peoples journeys, their wisdom, everything that makes them who they are and special.

This has truly been , and continues to be,a great way of appreciating all the beautiful things in life instead of feeling sad or depressed that i might not have or experienced some of them. I feel quite proud of myself in how i have been able to remind myself to do this! I am still learning and changing but i am so grateful that this lesson has come to me.

I do not want to wollow in any feeling of loss , but embrace the things i see that i would like in my life. Hopefully create a flow of them into my life by truly appreciating them instead of blocking them with negative feelings that i may not be good enough , will never have that or don’t deserve that.