I overshot my goal and gained 13 pounds! Woohoo!! I’m very happy with how I look and feel. I’m more fit (thanks to gymnastics), and I love my newfound hips and curves. They’re still not much, but they’re just right for me :). Still, I notice girls now who look as thin as I used to look, when I was 12 or 13 or so (I was even thinner then) and they are actually very cute and attractive… I wish I had known when I was 13 that skinny can be sexy too, I spent so much time feeling badly about how I looked. But I’m proud to say that I’m 105 pounds! I feel great and I feel better about how I look. Now, only five more pounds to be able to donate blood! :). Hopefully by next semester, I’m going to keep up gymnastics and try to build up more muscle.
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that I wasn’t going to weigh myself until I knew for sure i was gaining weight. But I did anyway. I was at the student health center picking up a prescription and while i was waiting i saw this electronic scale over in the corner. I thought, I feel like I’ve been gaining weight… let me just check and see if I’ve gained any at all. I got on the scale and it read, 100! What a nice surprise! But then I realized I was still holding my purse. As I reached down to set down my purse I felt myself estimating in my head how much it weighed. Apparently my purse weighs 3 pounds, because when I got back on the scale it read “97.0” pounds. No change at all. I thought at first this meant I lost a pound, but looking back I see the last time I weighed myself I was 97 pounds. Well, I must say, I give up. Maybe I didn’t try hard enough, but oh well. I guess I’ll just let it happen naturally, if it ever does.
With my gymnastics and going to the gym (by building muscle). I have noticed my body changing somewhat… my arms are a little more toned and not quite so scrawny and my legs look thicker (on a good day). I have a feeling that I’ve gained some muscle weight… but I’m too scared to get on a scale. I guess weight really just is a number, it’s more about feeling healthy and being happy with how you look, which I am. But I would like to be able to say that I actually did it, I gained 10 pounds. My goal weight is 102. (I was 92 pounds when I posted this goal). Maybe I will weigh myself once I’m sure I’ve gained weight.
So, naturally, they took my height and weight when I visited the student health center. 5’3” (no surprises there) and… 97 pounds? Damnit… I can’t do it, my body just won’t hold weight.
I’m thinking of starting to go to the gymnastics club here at state for this semester. I didn’t even know they had one but apparently they do and I am so excited to start! I used to be a gymnast but eventually had to give it up because my music was becoming a very demanding part of my life in high school. I’m hoping that attending this will help me gain some muscle mass (read: gain healthy weight!) and be in better shape overall. It goes on twice a week, but damnit, I already have two things going on for the next two meetings. Then it’s practically november… Oh well, hopefully I can make time for this and it can help me gain weight. (and not to mention, get more flexible! ;) )
So after steadily gaining weight for a few months, my weight has leveled off at 100. Just 2 pounds to go! come on, i’m so close!
Weighed myself today… 100 pounds! woo!
read: had to step on a scale. The verdict? 91 pounds. Damnit! What happened? Maybe it’s just because I’ve been sick. Oh well. Some day I’ll break 100.
I bought a shirt in New York the other day, it was a size 2 ladies. I’m normally a size 0, so I hoped it would fit. I’m wearing it today, and it is really tight around my torso. It’s actually a little small! Does that make me a 4? I don’t know. I wonder if that means I’m gaining weight. I don’t want to weigh myself because I know I’ll be let down.
I put it off for as long as humanly possible. But I went to the doctor for my sickness, and they wanted to see if I were losing weight. I could feel the alarm going off in my head: No! Don’t get on the scale! Don’t do it! but still my body brought me there, and the nice assistant played with the beams of the balance. I was nervous to look, but she stopped at… 96 pounds? Hey, that’s not so bad. So that’s an update on my weight, I guess my goal then should be changed to “gain 6 pounds” since I’d like to balance it out at about 102. We’ll see if I can do it.