be happy with who I am

i am insecure with my own life.

i want to be able to accept that i cant live the ‘normal’ teen life…

i understand that my mother is protective, but she needs to understand that i am 17, and i am alot more mature then she may beleive that i am. i can handle myself, i am trustworthy. she needs to realise that she cant protect me from everything, and that i need freedom.

mainly, i need to accept who i am as a person. i am happy how i was raised (apart from the paragraph above) but i dont have a very high self-esteem. i did beleive that i was getting over this issue because i had found the most amazing guy.

then it turned out he has lied about everything…and most likely his feelings towards me. he made me feel as if i was worth something..that i was beautiful. but i cant trust what he has said anymore.

so rebuilding my self-esteem is my main issue. i think in order to do this, i need more freedom. i need more time to hang out with friends that seem to appreciate me.