i need to understand (in alot of situations) when enough is enough.
i dont have much self-control when it comes to pain inflicted upon me.
for example, my ex-bf and i were playing slaps (play fighting but lightly slapping eachother on the cheeks when we could). at first it was all fun and games. then i started to get angry, and every slap that i got to give him, got harder. finally, he was stopping all of my slaps, and just getting me, which of course, got me even angrier.
finally, i got him to stand there, whilst i hit him like 4 times. and i dont mean a weak slap. i full on slapped him silly! and yeh, it felt good at the time, cos i just wanted to hurt him as much that he has hurt me.
but then after, i felt really bad, cos my hand was stinging and i couldnt imagine the headache that he would have had. so i apologize. and being the typical male, he replied with – it didnt even hurt.
now of course, this was not the right thing to say to me, and i just got so angry that i had to leave the room to physically stop me from attacking him.
i need to get control of my emotions.
