yoga

I ended up dropping the yoga class because I had a couple of weeks where I felt like I’d been to a bad chiropractor – not good. So I quit. I want to try pilates to see if I can’t strengthen my core first, then maybe later I’ll try yoga again, with a different instructor that isn’t so focused on headstands!

So, I was sore after my first day of Yoga! My hamstrings, oh my poor hamstrings… And today I went again, and we were doing sitting poses, and I thought, “Great! Easy!” Ha. My knees! My ankles! My back! I liked the standing poses better, even if they made my hamstrings sore. And I was better at them, too.

I have this weird affliction – when I am faced with doing something physical that is hard for me, I regress instantly to an infantile state and want to just melt into a tantrum like a two year old. I’m serious, this is really bad. It’s embarrassing!! I’m NOT good at physical stuff (always picked last for kickball and all that) and it just makes me feel so damn incompetent and stupid. I think that’s a horrible feeling, because I’m pretty smart and competent in other areas of my life. This issue I have with physical stuff that I can’t do well just makes me want to quit – to run the other direction as fast as I can (which is not too fast, actually) and it’s so stupid and self-defeating!

You would think that Yoga wouldn’t elicit this response in me, because it seems gentle and easy. I’m a basket case. Hopefully next week will be easier, because I am going to kick my own ass into sticking with it this time. Someone has to do it.

I finally went to my class. I actually MISSED the first three – for the first one, I just forgot what day it was – I had thought it was a W-F class, but it was a M-W class. Doh. The second one I actually had a good excuse – food poisoning! The third one, just general lameness and losing track of the time, not willing to just get there late.

So I made it to the fourth class. I went to the wrong place first, so I was late. I still went. I had sweats with me, but wore my street clothes (comfy jeans) because I was late. I didn’t let those excuses keep me from going. Finally! God I can be SO dysfunctional about the most mundane things!

I am so glad I made myself go! It felt really good, and I was surprised at what I could do! Of course, I’m sore today, and I think more from holding some of the Yoga poses than from working out in the morning. I went for a walk, though, and that seemed to help.

I’m looking forward to going back tomorrow, getting there on time, at the right place, in the right clothes, calm and relaxed and ready to “be a poser”! :)

Go me!

I’m signed up for Yoga classes this fall, so if I can stick with it, I should get this goal done! The trick is keeping with it.

The class is through the local community college, so much less expensive than through a yoga studio. A good way to get started!