live somewhere else

this city is so beautiful; my friends are here, i am settled, i feel secure here. it has everything i want…well, almost.

i need to experience a different life. i need to live somewhere else, just to live. a part of this is (admittedly) to expand things on the romance horizon. while i love my friends here, i can’t believe how alone i feel sometimes in that other way. guys just don’t approach me; romance does not occur.

but right now the two most feasible are

1) montreal
2) edinburgh

basically the latter i can get a job in, but the former i have places to stay. either way i could probably scrounge for a month and then if it doesn’t work out just come back. but one of these two places for a month has to happen. it just does. i have to find a way.

I feel very stuck at the moment, and there is so much to see and do.

I want to get out of the city and work somewhere else. this could mean another place in BC, or even Europe…I don’t care. I just want to get there. The city is a big security blanket to me, and even though it’s not a small town, I need a change. I need a change, some new people in my life, new experiences. I want to be on the road, a little free, even if temporarily.

I can’t wait until I get out of debt. I have to find a way to do it sooner, like next summer.

I’m going to look into taking some time from work…