do more

Well, I will be taking 2 courses and have an extra (very part time) job this semester so I think that getting rid of the TV should help. I took only one course last semester and spent a lot of time with my then-boyfriend, and still felt I had quite a bit of time.

Another bonus of no TV: my place has been cleaner :) Even though I still watch shows online, I have been more productive generally.

from ‘think less and do more’ to simply DO more.

by this i basically mean less idle time online or on the internet, or even on the phone.

this means that even relaxing should be productive, in essence. for instance:

-a nap is more restorative than TV
-live people-watching or socializing is better than the internet
-exercise can also be a social thing
-art can become gifts
-blogging could lead to a part-time writing job someday
-jamming with people is networking

what i need to do is change how i use my time and use it consciously, use it with the future in mind, whether that is the next minute or the next year. this will be particularly true come september when i start school…

the listmaking, i mean! i find that when i’m writing down way more things than i’m actually doing, it means i’m unfocussed and stressed out, not managing my time well.

i have to really really watch this…minutes, seconds, anything, many times i don’t need that list.

one of the ways i try to not do this too badly is just pick one or two key goals in a day (or a few on the weekend) and highlight them. this makes me feel better.

speaking of which…should get off the computer and do something!

i am still spending too much time waffling, planning, writing stuff down. to a certain extent reflection is good but it’s time to ACT!! i have to stop wasting time. life is too short!!!

like most people here seem to be, im great at dreaming and planning, writing notes and lists of ideas…but the follow through needs a little work.

reflecting on yesterday’s entry, i didn’t do much last night after all. i went to bed too early as i was exhausted, but im still exhausted.

i lit a candle and listened to music while lying on the couch, that after a bath. lazy, but still better than TV…

All I need is to do 1 thing daily; when I say ‘do’ I mean something that is productive in terms of my own priorities: cleaning, creating, learning, exercising, preparing healthy food. Something that will make ME feel better, even if it’s only 15 minutes that I take out of my day.

I already put a ‘block’ on my TV screen yesterday (the first) and have been more productive even having it up for a day. The reason I did this is that I watched WAY too much TV over the holidays. I was at my parent’s, so it was sort of OK, but it didn’t make me feel good about myself in that much excess.

When I came home I stayed in the habit, and then I really felt bad. So let’s see if the ‘block’ helps me be more productive.

been doing some productive stuff this weekend, but nothing creative really. mostly house-stuff. too much time spent alone thinking – i think it is sometimes making me crazy. i need to talk and better yet ACT – something more, something different…how??

this also goes with:

“love isn’t somethign that you feel, it’s somethign that you do”

it’s so true, i mean i can sit around and feel a million things about a million people, but what am i actually DOING in the meantime? and if im not giving love (to someone who wants it) then why am i here? or if im not making myself or others see things more clearly, what good am i? and what about passion? how will i be able to share passion and creativity if i’m not doing this myself in the first place?

I have always been like this, but have not realized until recently how detrimental it is to my general being. It is important to think sometimes, but when it is too much I will do things like write a lot and then get frustrated when that writing doesn’t get me anywhere.

I don’t know, this does not tie in with my goals of making a difference. How can I make a difference if I don’t DO anything? Even if I’m writing and making music, it’s therapy but it’s mostly for myself.

DOING something would be getting it out there. But I can’t rely on this. I have to have other ways.