Maintain a healthy weight

Ugh! I feel as though I am just shoving more and more calories into my mouth, waitng until there is the slightest bit of room, and then jamming more ridiculously high calorie foods into any little margin of room in my stomach. It is disgusting. I really need to learn some will power. I am trying to just keep moving a as to burn some additional calories: dancing to carols as I socialize, holding in my stomache as I watch Charlie Brown’s Christmas, but still, this is not exactly going to counter act the gorging I am forcing upon my body.
I keep telling myself, “Well, once the holdiays are over” or “Once New Year starts” or whatever, but the truth is I just need to start now.
Damn thee holiday treats! Damn them! Damn Them!

I just recieved an email from myself reminding myself that I want to maintain a healthy weight; as if I need an email to remind myself.
I seriously obsess over my weight about 60% of my waking hours. Does that stop me from eating two mini Snickers bars and a Reeces cup? NO, because I am gonna obsess regardless.
The weight maintenence thing is rapidly in decline, what with the skipping workouts, Halloween candy laying around and Thanksgiving taste-testers on the horizon, but the THINKING about weight gain/loss is not any different. I perpetually think about my weight, but I have no will power to change my behavior.
How depressing.

A co-worker of mine has agreed to go with me to the Y two times a week. We were supposed to go together today for the first time and already she has bailed! It’s okay. Maybe Thursday. Getting an exercise partner is suppose to make exercising a lot easier. We’ll see. If both of us are just lumps though, it may may just be a mutual exchange of excuses.
I’m still having trouble eating right. Although riding the bus does give me n opportunity to walk a little each morning and evening, it makes it more difficult to go grocery shopping and keep a healthy diet. Today all I have eaten is pretzels, a slim fast, cereal and a few pieces of candy. Sigh. I’ll keep working at it. I’m supposed to go out tonight to a place that serves great salads, so at least I’ll get some vitamins in me. That’ll be good.

I joined the YMCA today. It is on my way home from work so I am hoping that by not stopping at home first I will be able to maintain my motivation to keep going. Today I only ran for about 5 minutes, brisk walked for 10, a few weight machines and then the glider for 10 minutes. I was feeling guilty because I ate so many pretzels and mini-candy bars. I am not sure if working out will help me eat better or if it will give me an excuse to eat worse. We’ll see.
I dunno. Things are always easy at the beginning of the school year, when the wweather is good and it is still pretty easy to keep up with grading. After the year gets started though, it can become a lot harder. Any teachers out there experience the same thing? Have any tricks to stave it off?

Keeping a balanced weight becomes more difficult once school starts. For one thing, I eat out a lot more- usually not-good-for-me, expensive food. Blech. Also, I am usually so tired when I get home from work, or just too busy to work out. On the up side, I frequently skip lunch, and I do move around a bit more while working with my students. Does anyone have realistic suggestions on how to maintain a healthy lifestyle while working?

Ahh the weight issue; it has plagued me since I was about 14. There are so many different tables and indicators for a healthy weight or body mass or whatever, that is really hard to judge whether or not I’m really fit. Of course, there are people who say, “eat right and exercise and you won’t need to worry about your weight”, but I just read an article stating that most seriously overweight people really do believe that they eat healthy, so really the “eat healthy” rule is pretty darn subjective as well.
Sigh.
Any suggestions on how to find a good “healthy weight” indicator?