Quit Smoking

I wrote not long ago this was the hardest thing I had ever done voluntarily. It’s so true. I smoked for 30+ years.

I want a cigarette. But I don’t want to be a smoker, and that’s the thought that’s keeping me going. I want to be FREE.

So.. 2 weeks, 4 days, 4 hours, 26 minutes
363 cigs not smoked, saving $ 54.44

I wrote not long ago this was the hardest thing I had ever done voluntarily. It’s so true. I smoked for 30+ years.

I want a cigarette. But I don’t want to be a smoker, and that’s the thought that’s keeping me going. I want to be FREE.

So.. 2 weeks, 4 days, 4 hours, 26 minutes
363 cigs not smoked, saving $ 54.44

Someone asked me this morning if it’s been hard. Obviously not someone who’s ever smoked and had to quit. Don’t you just want to thump them on their little noggins?

This has been the hardest thing I have ever done – voluntarily.

That word, voluntarily, is the kicker, isn’t it? Most “growth experiences” are not voluntary. They happen to us; we don’t have any choice except in maybe whether we exhibit any grace in handling it.

It’s been 10 days since I started this, or 3/30/07. So far, so good.

I was wearing the patch, but now I keep forgetting to put one on in the mornings, so I am just going to go with it and see how it goes.

All last week I just had weird moments. It wasn’t so much that I really wanted to smoke, although the automatic thoughts were there in full force.

It’s more like something was missing. Part of it is the change in routine, I guess. Not taking breaks (formerly cigarette breaks) at the same times as I usually did.

I’ve definitely had a week where I’ve had all the usual stresses that usually make me stop and smoke a cigarette. For instance, this morning I hit a curb while turning into the office parking lot and blew a tire.

Hey, at least I was already AT work when it happened.