I’ve done all I can to consciously keep my heart open through the past several weeks of great change, I recognize now that I am ‘un-numbing’. Now that things are in place and it is time to start to adjust to the new reality, I am slowly being allowed back to experiencing the deeper emotions.
I wonder if that means that my heart still did close.
I guess there is only so much I can control with this.
I suppose I am only allowed to experience as much as I can handle at a given time, no matter what my own personal agenda may be.
Aug 01, 2008, 04:01AM PDT | 10 cheers | 0 comments
I am getting a bit better at “hellos and goodbyes”...
Jul 24, 2008, 04:45PM PDT | 4 cheers | 0 comments
I realized...
17 months ago
that I’m somewhat afraid of people who haven’t been humbled by life.
But I also realize that is quite judgemental.
People who don’t struggle, or who haven’t ‘overcome’ just make me nervous if we get close. It is like they know a whole different side to life, and also don’t understand hardship.
Intellectually, I do know it is good to have’stabilizing’ people, though… so I hope I can keep getting more comfortable with this…
Jul 15, 2008, 07:40PM PDT | 7 cheers | 0 comments
