stop looking at porn

I have been off porn 9 months. It has got a lot easier, but it is amazing how strong the urge can still get every so often. Once an addict always an addict. Quitting has made a huge change in my relationship with my wife and has drastically improved our love life. Additionally our first child was born in january adding further motivation to stay clean. Nothing like being a father to change your prespective on porn.
I have also started running again. I find anything that helps my self esteem, helps me with my struggle against porn. Running, reading, spending time out doors with my family. It may not work for everyone but it is doing wonders for me. The other thing that keeps me motivated is this page, somehow, having an outlet is a great motivator. This is the only place I have ever admitted this addiction.
Hope everyone stays strong…remember there is no sampling of the forbiden fruit…you MUST STOP OUTRIGHT. Don’t fool yourself to plan for one time a month, or everyother week. It will not work. Get it in your mind that you will NEVER look at porn again.

I read something the other day that I thought was interesting. They suggested that prior to logging onto the net, write down what it is that you want to look at/ review/ research, etc. And do just that. Don’t surf from location to location browsing for something interesting….we all know where we end up doing that. Anyhow it is food for thought. I have cut back my internet use to specified activities, no more trolling around. It has been very successful. However, the most successful thing to date for me is THIS SITE. This is the first place that I have ever admitted to having a problem with PORN and it has been a great relief. Thanks to all the other participants.

Wow, what a great site for me to find. I have been struggling with porn addiction for several years (8 years). Porn always intrigued me, but access limited me from getting to heavily into it. I would rent a tape or buy a movie, if my wife was out of town. But like many of us, the internet was my down fall. I can easily spend 8 hours at work browsing porn, chat rooms, etc. I would stop for a few days and then slowly fall back into it. I bought a new computer last summer and decided that I would never go to any porn pages with it. To be honest I have not gone to any porn sites in 7 months, however, twice I have broke down and down loaded porn through a P2P file share. I thought that after 30 days I would be home free, the urges do eventually lessen. And you learn to notice the triggers that stilmualate the desire. It starts honest enough, looking for something interesting on the internet see a picture of a good looking women in a swim suit (or less), a few clicks here, a few clicks there, and next thing you know back into the rut.
I find that when I do spend a day looking at porn it drastically impacts my relationship with my wife. I seem to have a hard edge and want to find an excuse to fight with her. It just seems so unfair to her. Like others have mentioned it wreaks havoc on our love life, as my body becomes accustomed to massive and variable stimulii to be turned on. The last 7 months (other than the two re-lapses) have been fantastic, especially with my relationship with my wife. I would love to say that after 7 months I have this thing beat, but no such luck. I have been to several self help sites, but this is the only one, where there is an oportunity for peer support. I will continue to check in here every few days to provide support for others and recieve the support that I need as well.
PS it isnt beat after 30 days…but it gets alot easier.
All the best