be a dominatrix

about this topic. I really like the S&M scene. I think that its really interesting and I want to explore it so that I can write about the experience.I did meet this guy online and we agreed that we would follow “The Story of O” . I was O and he was her lover. Granted ,I wasnt very good at listening to him ! He told me that I was allowed to date but I wasnt allowed to kiss anyone. I did that but then he complained I dated too much. (I went out with 2 guys , since we started this like adventure anywhoo ) Then he wasnt happy that I spoke to alot of guys online. Me, being the person I am steped out of character told him off. Maybe I shouldnt have done that because now he isnt talking to me. And that hurts my feelings.
I did everything he told me , with a few exceptions. At least now I try to email him, text him and I get no reply.
At least for a first time thing, I learned that I have to give up somethings to have a more intense experience in this S&M.I did feel that at the begining and it was a rush.
This guy was in Holland and Im here so it made it a bit harder.I hoope he does talkl to me again someday, but if not , Ill look elsewhere to learn. First times a charm…

i think thats what I can do just to get a feel of it .To see myself in another light to see if I want o do this. I had this idea this morning cause I have a friend of mine that is a photographer a little more on the vixon side. I think its sexy and inviting . Pain and pleasure. Hot and cold.

Is when I think Ill dress up as one . That would be alot of fun !!

i have been very very curious about becoming one just for the day and see how it goes.I mean with the whole getup and slave. I did have this one guy that all i did was insult and he thanked me for it. What an ego boost. He was taken from me by another woman pimp and he told me i had to pay him to talk. i kindly deleted his useless ass.
there is this other dude im talking to now and the wanting just to step all over him is intriging. i think he wants me to do it too….....hmmm maybe i should think about this