beat dermatillomania

Well, I’m bored. So I thought I’d write in something about my progress. Basically, I’ve been doing a lot better. I’ve been putting lotion on my left foot(the worst spot) every day and it’s been getting a lot better. I’m not good enough to consider myself done(there’s been a few stray pickings), but I’m a lot closer. :D

So I’ve been doing really well on the not-picking thing since I joined this site. However, the other night I was reading a book and my foot started itching. The next thing I knew, my sock was off, my foot was on my heel, and I was peeling off two strips of callused skin. I felt really ashamed, especially since my mom thinks I should just be able to stop. I don’t think it’s that easy.

One of the suggestions they make is that you write down your feelings and try to figure out why you’re picking. Well, in this case, I think it’s just plain boredom. At college I’m hardly ever sitting around alone with nothing to do. There’s homework, my PA (research I do with a professor), and a fairly active social life. Back here at home, I hardly have incentive to get dressed every morning, so I pretty much just sit around in my pj’s and watch excessive amounts of TV. At least I’ve been reading some books so my brain doesn’t completely disintegrate.

Now I’m at the library because my mom got mad that I’ve been doing nothing at home. She said I need to get some work done but my laptop doesn’t like the wireless network at home so I have to go here.

I was trying to work but now I can’t concentrate because I have a lot on my mind. I’m trying to get at least a little of it out of my system on here.

This is actually how I found this site. Today I was walking with a little bit of a limp because I’ve picked the skin on the bottom of my left foot. My mom noticed and freaked out. When she saw the bottom of my foot, she really freaked out. Then she did some research and found out that this was an actual disease on the OCD spectrum. I can’t believe it! I’m not alone, and some people are far worse than me. But I’m still really bad, so I’m going to start treating my feet (and the rest of me) a whole lot better.

I Googled the term and that’s how this site came up. It sounds like a really good site, so I’ve decided to join. Maybe it will help with my other goals too.