laugh every day

Had moments of joy and calmness. Moments of what ought to have been fun. Nope was dry, forced and dull. Not sure why, not sure if it doesnt count. Got to keep the eye on the miniscul, and focus on the feeling. change doesnt have to be this hard. Laugh about it, laugh hahahahah and smile. Its free for everyone. funny though how the happiest people are those with the least, funny that. You would think they would have the reason to be the saddest ?

I think thats why my jaw hurts. maybe i ought to start a laugh class. They say forcing a laughing episode works just as well. and I know its like any muscle. laughing needs to work. Bugger

spontansley i laugh out loud today. And it felt good. Not to sure what it was that made my laugh, but that doesnt matter. whats important is i did it nad i remembered doing it. Hope i laugh tommorrow.

when the world getsw small and all i see is the pain and sadness, ats what i get day after day, when i decide to see the joy and laughter that what ill get. Thats what the secret said, if its good how can it hurt ? Except change is always hard, but anything worth doing must be felt