Write every day

I know writing is good for my soul.And there was a time I really injoyed it. so why now at this point in my life, when if at any point it was so critically i write, I dont !. Shame on me I say. Not guilt, but shame. But not unredemable… There is another choice. Just start where I left off. Stop cutting yourself so mu slack and get with the programme. Pain can only be felt by the self. The programme is it know they self through expression. Knowlegde is power.

fantasy and reality combine to scare ones self again. How does ones keep the maddness tucked right up safe and sound within ones own mind. its a little diffcult when one wants to reconnect with the social world. Just how much do we left and individual in ? how much do we let them know, and then if the frust is brocken so we try again ? or give it up a the failed joke of humanity. i cant answer these right now. But I do know that being connected has it good and bad points. Just trying to work out if one out weights the other. One can walk trough the world part of yet quite disconnected, marginlised through choice as well as a result of captialism.

trying to deal with the befuddled brain. so maybe instead of non-fiction personal writing i should may try to deal to some fictional narratives. Any how any writing is good writing, at least Im getting the fingers and thoughts moving, motivation outputs….

Oh I have been so lazy. Not one word has escaped my finger tips. What do you still think you are on holiday or sabbatical or what.
Still get the reminder emails, look Im pissing me self off, hahahaha:)
But seriously, it time to get with the programme, and turn the noise (tv) off. realised the writing comes with the reading. and for some reason I refuse to do much of either, and reading was my first love. A change is in the air.

what is proper writing. this is easy.

Here we go again. It ought not be this hard. Is it because I feel I have absolutely nothing to say ?.... Inspite of that i have to do this work. What a machosit would do. cant wait for the pleasure.

Not sure if this is working. I seem to spend time here yet still neglect the other writing I have to do. maybe it is the hormone of crisis and stress Im addictied to. Cos it would be worng to say i never get it done. Its just that I dont like the stress i create with the doing it in time, aspect. Need ti devekop much more discipline with myself. To be stricter with the timetable. Havent given up yet, tho.

Writing that is. Not quite everyday, but most. Im develping abit ot a discipline about it. Yay me.

Some say anythin goes. see what I mean, if one can understand it it si narrative. This Im not to sure of. I if the prinicples of language are bent, where does the theory of mind and expression meet ?
Practice practice practice. When writting does there need the construction of the audience to maintain temporality and morality ? Odd odd odd. Not sure it even makes sense. ill check it out on the reflex.

I wrote alittle last night and again today. Plan on doing some tonight. I have to finsh tonight. I wrote the story and am now going to apply the theory. What is my question, the construction of T. agency ? How the differing situations have constructed her. Her willness to take part in the filming, and present herself and tell her story. The redefining of uncaring bad mother to battered woman loving mother. Of particular note is her nattive of freedom and her construction of who she is and what she will have, the use of the “I”verus the “Me” construction of the society.