have a summer romance

alas no romance was to be had. However that did not stop some passion spilling over, dry old familar nothingness. But the Autumn is here and the scent is in the air. Nothing wrong with a little help from the “love thy self” brigade…..... keep it all locked up here. It ok to lead a celibarate life, but what when the time comes for human intimacy…..what will be the answer…..?

Does one have to wait for summer ? i dont know. I would suggest not, romance can happen any time.
What I have discovered is….I am not ready to fall in love, and dont want to share all the parts of my life with another, yet. However, I am open to getting to know another without the need of finality, and the hopeless absorbtion that can engulf the incomplete identity.
First is the issue of romance. Much is directed by hollywoods perception. What does it truely mean to ex[erience romance ? Self help literture argues one can have the romantic exp. on ones own. therefore thats what Im going to do. I am going to put a concerted effort to romance myself. Hopeful I will discover what I like and love. All be it chessey I am going to initate the experiment with a hollywood cliche, and go from there. As the idea builds why not use the expereince to discover the cultural exp. .And learn how diff. cult. experience romance, and try them out. One a month, thats 12 a year. Being the first week free after New Years. Plan a walk along a beach, champagne and full moon ? (I may have missed it by a 6 days) and …? a nude swim ?

Romance, love and lust. What do we most desire. I know love and initmacy. do I want that level of intimacy or will I be satisfied with a hot lusty encounter or so I want the crush and fantasy that is within the self ? All are very distracting.