appreciate what I have

maybe it is all the things I ought to be happy about.
Can seem to be able to break out of the immediate flip into the negative hopless uncaring state I percieve the interactions I have are with my family. a cycle I have to change? or do I just have to change how I feel as a result ?
1. I have a home.
2. I have a purpose. (? – define and expand)
3. Im fed.
4. I created 5 beautiful beings.
5. Im strong and weak interchangebly
6. I have social moments.
7. I am willing
8. I have resonable health.

9. I have humour.
10. I have tecnology.
What makes me happy,
personal success, creating beautiful food. having a great walk.
playing in my garden. following the pace of life.

Let go give in give up surrender / is the the path to inlightenment ? If we knew what utopia look like it would make the hob a whole lot easier. Basic meaning of life.

Try to walk through life backwards. Its all in the knowing !!!!! Hold strong to what you know to be true, have faith and hope. Live with mercy, be humblein your attainments and true to the self. And you will live in love.

I am grateful, but. No really I am grateful for what I have, maybe just not as grateful for where I am. But today, I feel really good, sis some study, made a decsion and acted on it, saw reward for effort. need a stronger praise voice, to balance the critque.

Went to visit the intention community on the westcoast, nz. Challenged me to look at some of my beliefs, surrounding GOD and christianity. Literal translators are scary in their fundemental beliefs, particulary when it encompass subjectation of another based on gender. Im very happy with my free will and critical thought processes.