emo

fuck i cant wait to wear this tights 2morrow!!!oh fuck 4 a moment there i almost smiled i shountt i coulnt and wouldnt dare 2 tey it….

oh myself sorry toughts pain tragedy struck so fast the day i died,i didnt know i was dead i get up and find my cold bloody body ,i see myself lying down my whole life flashed beforemy bright sight gentle glimpse,i saw what i wish i dindnt,im sorry i try to forget ,not regret,i tought i would live by crying my mistakes,i guess i was rong,i remembered when i lived ,how i was judged,called names,they did it just 2 make themselfes feel better they wanted me 2 get a taste of their pain,they didnt know i loved pain ,how i craved it it would hurt so good,people feltsorry they tought of what i could of been and done morethan i did i see her running she finds me lying downdead she tought i would die old next 2 her ,oh she cried she wished she died i tried 2 call her she couldnt hear me i whisper in her ear ,i byte her lip,like i did when i once lived i remember kissingher neck looking up 2 see her expression the look in her eyes she enjoyed it,alliwanted was2 make her happy this is why i was sent my mission,my reason to live it was her,i made my last attempt on calling her i failed,im just a lost soul a gosth in denialof my death,i tought that my lonlyness would kill me,fullfill me ,feel me,need me,i just liked the feeling of being wrapped around her arms,the sweet smell of the expensive body spray she wore 4 me i apreciated it,but now im dead i died but i died the way i wanted,not because i got hit by that car but by the way i looked as a gosth so emo,she wanted me 2 kiss her like i did,and she tought that she will never find someone like me Noah the lost emo guy.but dont worry my sweet youl find some one soon while i look down at you ill protect you,ill wait 4 you endlesly,so you can share my guilty pleasures once again,so kiss me,lets remember the time we madeout underwater you looked so graceful your hair like a mermaid’s your dress floated,exposing you underwear you didnt care,my pants were on tight but you werefragile i miss you and ill always love you.

honestly nobody really knows i thin k i do but imnot saying anything oh i just feel like ,oh i cant hide it this pain im feeling deep,deep locked up inside i gotta let it all out.

yeah being myself its hard there isnt a day im not judged,i wish i had the strenght but i cant overcome my emotions no reas0n to hide .