stop binge drinking

I have not had a drink since the 9th June 2008. I am taking Campral to help with the cravings but these days I find I skip the tablets accidentally and I dont really notice. Its not like earlier when I would remember to take the tablets because all I was thinking about was alcohol.
Its a lot like getting over a relationship. for me anyways.. the emotions that I went through etc were almost exactly the same.. the longing etc.
Anyways Ive got a lot done not being pissed and I have been at parties and pubs with friends and family and not felt the need to drink, i love soda water anyways.
I do sometimes miss the fun but I am realising that with my friends and family it was hysterical just because they are, not because I was drunk :)
I think when I am bored or anxious I do sometimes want a drink, but I don’t think about it when I come home from work, and I dont think about it on a Friday night so often. I still think about it sometimes… but not so much.
I feel really good about it. I am very proud of myself and I would say that anyone who feels that their drinking is out of control – do what you can to rein it back in. Feeling like you are not the driver on the journey that is your life is really unfair to yourself.. take control back. we all deserve that, and theres so many ways we are not in control already – dont let a substance rule your thoughts and emotion.
I am glad I am on my way back. I’m wrestling the steering wheel outta their hands. :)

OK.. i had like 3 days in a row totally sober last month and I started drinking again.
I have not had a drink for.. 2 days now. I felt really really sick the other night (not sick like nauseous more like my body was just going to turn itself off) and I think it was a good thing.. I do not have the urge to drink so much now. It is still there but it is not a physical need like it was.. I am able to “think myself out of it” if that makes any sense at all.
Went clubbing the other week and only had a few beers, and I went to DJ Shadow last night and didn’t drink all night. I feel OK today. I need to remember what it feels like to NOT be hungover.
I am hoping that after a little while it will be like I am with cigarettes.. like I will get the urge only rarely.
I need to learn to sit with myself.. unintoxicated, clean.. just ME. And be content with that instead of striving for “other” feelings.

and something bad or stupid happening. I have cut out drinking all but completely but when I do, i drink compulsively, i drink a lot, and i lose the plot.

I just have to stop drinking. I need to not have that first drink, for ever.

I am sick of the aftermath and sick of the regret.