meet my soulmate

Again have a “dangerous attraction” with someone that is not meant for me. Through this, I’ve learnt new things that is more on the wild side of me. The excitement may rescue me from my boredom, however, the decision to be made later has to be either heart breaking or hopelessly pathetic. Im confused, should I just enjoy it, at the same time, trying to not let it grow into me or i should just kill it before it hurts me later? :( arrrghh!! relationship is complicated!!!!

i always believe in soulmate, but as i grow older and older.. he doesnt seem to show. so im starting to wonder whether my soulmate exists or not. if i found him, it would be… wonderful!