track what's on my zeitgeist

Amsterdam
fighting with Atheer
bumming
studying
French
being ‘a couple’
hunger
the ego
sitting on the green spot
cooking for everyone
being more like my mum wanted me to be and actually being fine with that
staying calm
taking the responsibility for my own life
finding and losing a job within a week
being stingy
having no pride or self-respect and discovering that sometimes it’s better that way
looking for cigarettes/money/stuff on the ground
disappointment
don’t judge a book by it’s cover
so-called anarchists

me and my Bobby McGhee

bipolar disorder
love sickness
being ignored
police repression
freedom of speech
slacktivism
volunteering at Pogo Cafe
doing my hair
having no money
blagging from my friends
getting fit
David Icke
conspiracy theories
2012
Olympic Games London
new strength for the movement

porn
liberation
performance art
veganism
squatting
dealing with bad emotions
how to be fair to others
psychedelic drugs
betty’s art studies
squat-sitting
free love is boring
schizoid introvert
spd
dream -> no drugs etc.
dan

meeting new people
dancing like I used to
find new music on the internet
sorting out my life
analyzing myself
becoming a person I would like to meet
finding a new way of presenting myself to others
expressing myself through my outer appearance
rock’n’roll hair
I look like lydia lunch (surprise!)
eye make up
rings
adorning my soul with a beautiful body
drinking alcohol again and remembering what it’s like to be drunk
meeting my old friends from school
psychosomatic medicine
aching legs: letting myself down
getting things done
learning new skills
my talent: I can read people
lucid dreaming
growing up
relying on and not disappointing myself

so, to sum it up, my zeitgeist right now consists of a lot of internal issues, thinking about who I am and who I want to be, being disappointed by the way things have been and figuring out how to change them by changing my behaviour.
on another note, I care more about my appearance than I did before. I try to reach out to other people and show them who I am. I therefore express myself through my looks because this is the first thing people take notice of when we meet and also because I feel that I am more vulnerable, exposed and forced to be honest and to stand by myself if I turn my personality inside out. no hiding anymore.