live my life on my own terms, not trying to live up to the expectations of others

I think I may be crazy. But.
I am leaving Tifton after I graduate.
I cannot and will not live in this town much longer.
I’m sorry to my family and friends.
But you are all holding me back too much.
I graduate in December.
I’m going to save up my money for a while and figure out where I’m going.
My plan is to be gone by the summer.
My life has to move forward.

I’m graduating from MTC in December this year. I’m so excited.
But I’m thinking of not going to the graduation. I am proud of myself and all but I don’t want to go and waste my time standing and walking around in front of some strangers who don’t know me and prolly never will.
This decision will be made within the next few months/weeks.

I make the majority of my own choices and try not to be what everyone else thinks I should be.
I have pierced my eyebrow (somewhat out of peer pressure from my cousin), pierced my lip (b/c I wanted to), took out my lip piercing (b/c it bothered me), I have pierced the webbing of my tongue and taken that out also.
I have a beautiful and wonderful girlfriend (which no one expected of me since I was so obviously straight).
I am currently going to college and getting my degree in early childhood education b/c this is what I want to do with my life. My parents want me to do more with my life but all I want to do is have a wonderful job where I know I am making someones life better (i.e. being a teacher).

My entire exsistance up until recently has mostly been: Will my parents approve? What will everyone think? What is the easiest choice?
Ever since this summer (June 2006) I have learned that the only person making choices for your life should be YOU. I make bad choices sometimes yes, but I know its all apart of life and if I hadn’t of made those choices that more than likely I wouldn’t be where I am now.

I can and will make my own decisions in my life. But. I know sometimes I might have to put Jamie Lynn’s feelings before my own.
I want to move out of state as soon as I am able to but I know all of that depends on her wanting to go with me. I won’t leave GA unless shes going with me.
No one else is going to have to live my life. And I want to live it on my terms, not what everyone else wants me to.