Be less introverted

It’s a combination of several things. First, I was picked on an awful lot in grade school and middle school and it made me realize that I’m probably going to have to get used to being alone, so that’s what I started trying to do. Also, academics were holding my social life back in high school and college. I had no problems understanding most of the material, but it took me longer to work on it than almost everybody because my mind would wander so much, so I was spending 6 hours a day at school and 10 hours a day on homework, so that didn’t leave any time for socializing. Another thing is that I’m TERRIBLE at conversations, sometimes even if I feel that I relate to a person well. I often find myself thinking “What the hell is there to say?”, and sometimes people think I’m ignoring them when I’m really not. I wish that I was better at that stuff. All of the above things combined kinda got me into an introverted lifestyle. Sometimes I wish I could ’’snap out of it’’, because I get kinda lonely sometimes. I’m still living with my parents, so I do have them for company for now, but I won’t be able to do that forever. Hopefully I can get better at that conversation stuff if I practice it.