graduate from college

Having lost my job there were no more excuses about going back to school, and I’m pretty excited about it too. I’m just starting at the community college here. I figure I’ll be done with the Associates in Science for Computer Science in a year, and then I’ll move on to the University of Minnesota’s Computer Science program. I am a little scared about going back for the same reason that I had to quit…my bipolar and borderline symptoms. I’m going to just keep trying my best though, and take things as they come while I try very hard to take care and manage my symptoms the best I know how.

I’m starting off with one class for summer session. I need the extra time to devote to it since it’s calculus, and I haven’t had a math class since 2003. I’m probably biting off alot with that class, since I had to submit an academic petition for them to let me take it. They let me enroll though, and I’m very focused on making it through with an A.

In the fall I’ll have a full schedule. I have Fundamentals of Linux/UNIX, Fund of Comp Sci I, Calculus II, and Intro Relational Databases.

It’s been 6 years since I had a class. I’m so excited to finally be back at it!

I have been missing a ton of work b/c how off I’ve been feeling from med changes. I’m really shooting to go back on Monday though. I’m really hoping I don’t get fired. They would wait for someone to come in just to tell them directly they are fired. Grrr. I’d prefer a phone call if that was going to be me. I’m a little nervous about going back needless to say. My Abilify dosage was halved by my doctor, so I hope that makes the difference. I can’t stand feeling restless like that.

There have been a few professionals that have suggested to get going on applying for social security disability, since I haven’t been able to work for several weeks now. There is a ton of paperwork. I started the online application, but I don’t think that I will have much of a chance of getting it unless I loose my job entirely. I used to think that loosing my job would be the end of the world, since I worked so hard to pass the test to get my broker license.

I’m going to probably be starting DBT shortly. I was thinking that going back to school, at least part time, would be more feasible than working. That way I can continue getting the help I need, w/o me having to worry so much about missing work. I miss college and I really want to finish my degree. I still have tons of things to consider, but one of the big decisions may be made for me next week.

I really want to go back and finish my computer science degree. I just have so many barriers right now. It’ll happen some day though.