get over my phobias

I just touched / picked up a moth :D
Although it was dead, so it’s not all that fear conquering ¬_¬
And I had to make sure it was absolutely dead before I did.
Ah, now I feel itchy D:

Acrophobia – heights, just standing a few steps up on a ladder makes me uneasy, which can be difficult, since it means when ever I need to put something on my wall or go into the loft I have to get someone else to do it for me. I’ve sat up in the loft for an hour before because I was scared to come down.

Agoraphobia – crowded spaces/leaving saftey I’ve had this phobia for almost a decade now, and it’s probably gotten worse as time has passed. It’s probably the one I want to cure most since it really restricts me, but I feel that I’ll be losing part of my personailty too.

Anthropophobia – society/people Another biggy. The fear is now starting to affect my personality, at first I was just scared of being near people, now I’m starting to hate them. It’s really self-destructive, I hate people before I even know them.

Entomophobia – insects it used to just be spiders and bees/wasps, but then it was moths, then all flying insects, then all fast moving insects. So I only feel unthreatened of worms, snails, slugs and caterpillars. It is getting better though, although only towards moths and butterflies. I did some reserch not so long ago on them and I think that helped, just looking at the different species, the pictures etc. I even picked a butterfly up the other month. It’s just the way they fly/flutter around that terrifies me, and I’m constantly getting moths in my bedroom D:

Scolionophobia – school every kid’s dream phobia. This doesn’t really effect me anymore, now being 20, but a counsellor actually diagnosed me with this when I was in my early teens. I still feel unease whenever I see school kids in uniform. The thought of passing a school is just ugh.

Telephonophobia – telephones I can look at them, be in the same room as them and touch them, but when they ring I want to hide. This stemed from some bad experiences with phones in my teens and I’ll only ever talk on the phone when I know for definite who is calling. In the past two years I’ve only ever answered the phone for two people. I guess people would see it as a strange phobia, with how caught up in cellphones everyone is, so I’ve only ever told a handful of people. When people who I knew used to ring me and I didn’t answer, they’d take offence and didn’t believe me when I told them about my phobia, so now I generally avoid phones. I don’t think I’ll ever own a cellphone again, but I would like to be able to cope with answering the phone.

Thalassophobia – the sea when I was five, on a family holiday to Greece, the peddleboat we were in became stuck and my mother and sister had to get out and push, they couldn’t even see the ocean floor. I don’t know if that was the cause as I don’t remember the experience much, but the thought of it now terrifies me. I learnt to swim briefly when I was younger, but my complete avoidance of masses of water has meant I’ve probably forgotten. Water-related, I also get scared of drowning sometimes, like when I wash my face, that I’ll somehow breathe in the water from my hands, choke and then die. As simple as that. Sea-creatures are also a no-no. I think just the general idea of not knowing what’s down there scares me.

Tada.