find my soulmate

I’m not so sure that I’ve found my soulmate, but I have found a young man who enjoys my company, who’s company I enjoy, and who makes me smile. Time will tell.

Ok, well if you’ve read my other entries on my other goals, you’d know that I finally came to pretty much everyone in my family, all of my friends, and even most of my co-workers. It was the most refreshing and freeing experience I’ve ever had. I imagine that it’s similar to astral travel, except physical.

Now that I’ve done this, I’m searching for dates, special people in my life, and of course, my soul mate. I’m still a fat s.o.b. and thus I am finding it harder, but that isn’t stopping me from searching.

My main goal now is to be sure that I don’t mistake a first time, or an open opportunity, for my soul mate. I know that for us desparate people, a first time or an actual chance will sometimes appear to be the holy grail and we will grab at it like a drowning man to a life preserver.

I still want to have a first time, to kiss, to have sex, but along those lines, I also want to find my soul mate. If these happen to match, that would be fantastic, but not a requirement.

As I get closer to my goal weight, I think that I’m getting closer to coming out of the closet and also searching for my soulmate.

I’ve found, at least in my limited experience in online looking, that a great number of gay men seem to feel that everything is about sex. Luckily I can see that there are still some that want a long term relationship and I’m hoping that at least a few of them are sincere.

Love as always,

Sebastian

Although I haven’t been searching, I would very much like to find someone that loves me, that I love, willing to share the rest of my life on this planet.

Part of my hopes that this is a young man, one who shares my thoughts and beliefs and loves me as much as I love him, and part of my wants the traditional young woman so that I can start a big family.