lighten up

I can tell I’m forming a new care-free attitude in one of the stressful parts of my life… my relationship. It’s gotten to the point where I just don’t blow up anymore when he does stupid things. Oh you stayed out last night instead of staying with me like you said you would? Eh, whatev. I had more fun than if you were with me anyways. lol

That sounds horrible, but seriously. This relationship is a ticking time bomb and it has been for three years. I’m just waiting it out.

I was very grumpy today and I kept thinking, I need to just lighten up, but I just couldn’t help but be mad about what my boyfriend and I were talking about. Needless to say, I’m going to have to keep working at it.

I’m actually a very, very carefree person, but there are some things that just get me so overly stressed out and sometimes I don’t know how to handle it. It’s a vicious cycle because I know that if I could get myself to relax, then I could take care of whatever is stressing me out, but I get worked up and can’t chill out, so it’s harder to do whatever I need to do which stresses me out even more.