decide what I want to do with my life

well, for now, i’ve decided move to the capital next yearto go to uni next year and study literature.
the only thing i’ve figured out is that i want to write for a living. i’d like to write novels and i would also like on work on tv.

i need a degree, that much i know and there’s two schools i like that offer literature and a minor, one offers film,psychology,communication,history,philosohpy,among others.
the other one i kinda like better but they don’t offer film i can get a minor in journalism and history and economy,and othert things,though.
i wanna go to santiago and visit them both, to try and make up my mind.

i still need to convince my parents. i’ve been telling them slowly, trying to get them used to the idea, but my mind is pretty much set. i’m going, even if it means i gotta pay for it myself.

i was thinking about it today. i don’t think i have one.
i couldn’t come up with one.

the closest i got was ‘be joss whedon’ but i honestly dont know what that entails. i mean, writing and producing your own cult tv show must be really cool but… i don’t know if i see myself like that-

i want to write, that much i know, but after that, i’m blank

i’d like to… live in london and have like an internship or something with the bbc. i love british telly, and i’d love to live in the uk doing whatever.

i don’t know how some people today, they have like their whole life planned in advance. what to do, where to go, things to accomplish before they’re 30, etc.

while i get more lost and confused every day.

i really need a job, even if it’s just to distract me.

i am so sick of everyone asking if i’m going back to school or not.
i know my parents want me to go back. they want me to shut up and do what i’m told. to give them no trouble, like always.

i don’t want to go back, but i keep wondering if that’s the right decision.

what will i do? i can get a job, but then what?

i dont wanna stay in this small town for ever doing something i hate but i also dont want to do nothing with my life and in 15 years still be working at a video store or something similar.

i don’t know how to talk to my parents. they’re both rather old and are just eager to put us through school and see us graduate.

unluckily, im the youngest and apparently, not only it means i get to wear hand-me-downs and always take a back seat to my older siblings, but also that i dont get to choose what i wanna do.

it scares me to death to confront them and go against everything they want.
i know they’re dissapointed in me, but i am also dissapointed in them. i thought they’d support me. they always said they would.
but talkin ain’t doing.

now i am at a crossroad not knowing what to do and they’re no help at all.

i’ve checked many universities and im pretty confident i want to study literature.

however my parents arent very happy
they think its too expensive, that im not mature and/or responsible enough to live on my own, that i wont be able to get a job, etc.

i dissagree, i think i am more than ready.

i need to talk to them and convince im serious, i know

its just that they barely pay any attention to me, too worried with my brother’s problem at university, my sister being here for vacation, etc. they only seem to notice me when im doing something wrong or im on the way

and 99% i dont care, i just want them to let me do this one thing.

i found a university that has a degree on literature and creative writing and it seems quite perfect for me.
now i’ve got to convince my parents to let me go which may be rather complicated

i’m studying journalism, second year.
i like it but i don’t know if it’s what i want to do.
i do like to write and also take pictures which is why i’m studying this. it’s a good career and it can open many doors for me.

i’m still young so i don’t have to choose right now what will i do.
i just know i want something interesting, fun,challenging
not a 9-to-5 job i hate